Fear Of The Future

Lord, I pray that you would reveal to me the desires and plans that you have for me. Kindle a passion in my heart to pursue the course that you have prepared for me. Send the right people and influences into my life. I trust you with my future.
Fulfill your plan and purpose in my life. Help me to be obedient to whatever your will is for me to be obedient to whatever your will is for my life. Lead, guide, and direct my steps. Give me courage and strength to overcome any obstacle that stands between me and the destiny you have you for me.
Give me patience and persistence. Let me not lose heart or give up when I face setbacks, but be bold and strong in my faith. Give me fortitude to press on when I am tempted to give up and quit.
May my life be a testimony of your love, your passion, and your abundance provision. In Jesus’ name I pray, amen

The past two days have tried my faith more than I can hardly take at this point. My friends helped me finally retrieve all of Tony and my storage unit. So now, I have been taken back to the day I watched my dad and his friend put it all in storage.

  • Despondent
  • Emotional
  • Utterly taken aback
  • Not understanding

I never imagined that my life would be like this right now. Well I guess who really sees something this traumatic happening. We all hope for the best, make plans for the future and go on our merry way.

Well, I can’t see past my grief to face my future. I am afraid of the future. I am heartbroken to think about what devastation will happen next to me. I feel that I have had my fair share and I know that all I need to do is praise the Lord and put it in his hands.  Being a sinner….that is easier said than done sometimes.


I don’t want  a new future. I want the future I planned with Tony. I want him holding me close and being there for me as I was him. I want my best friend back. I know that this is selfish of me and it is not Your plan but I am scared Lord.

I am scared…..



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